This is a crazy busy semester and so far I'm loving it! I'm not drowning yet, thank God, but I need to get ahead instead of just getting by for now, 'cause I know, it'll still catch up with me.
It's really easy, it seems like, to just let life pass on by. I keep focusing on the daily things I have to do, and a few of the things I currently want to do, and then occasionally I see an old picture or... I tell a friend, "when I have my own place I'll..." do whatever. And when that happens, I remember that THIS is my life. It's happening right now. If I don't do the things I want/ love to do now, I'm not going to make time for them "when I get my own place" or "when I can finally afford it" or whatever. It's hard to remember and it's difficult to grasp, but it is true.
Often, I want to just take a day, take my paint, my easel, a bottle of wine, and a good book and drive down some freeway until I find a gorgeous spot, pull over, and just spend the day there. And I always say, "when I have someone to share that with, I'll do it." But that may not be true. It may be that when I do have someone to share it with, they feel like doing something else, or they never have time to do that, or who knows. Life.... is really strange like that. It's all a balancing act. Balancing money, job, school, family, friends, hopes, desires, work and play, whew... it's exhausting. And I'm not sure it can ever all be balanced exactly right. and maybe spending your life trying to balance everything is pointless anyway, because, no matter how hard you try, it cannot ever totally be done.
Part of me says, "striving for perfection is good!" and another part says, "why bother?! it's hopeless!" I think the answer is... strive for it, but don't be disappointed when you can't achieve it all. You have to be okay with having a stain on your couch or a person you maybe aren't perfectly top notch with....
The point is, if you're not okay with those things, then you'll never be happy. There you have it.
I think I'm done. Thanks for reading!
It's really easy, it seems like, to just let life pass on by. I keep focusing on the daily things I have to do, and a few of the things I currently want to do, and then occasionally I see an old picture or... I tell a friend, "when I have my own place I'll..." do whatever. And when that happens, I remember that THIS is my life. It's happening right now. If I don't do the things I want/ love to do now, I'm not going to make time for them "when I get my own place" or "when I can finally afford it" or whatever. It's hard to remember and it's difficult to grasp, but it is true.
Often, I want to just take a day, take my paint, my easel, a bottle of wine, and a good book and drive down some freeway until I find a gorgeous spot, pull over, and just spend the day there. And I always say, "when I have someone to share that with, I'll do it." But that may not be true. It may be that when I do have someone to share it with, they feel like doing something else, or they never have time to do that, or who knows. Life.... is really strange like that. It's all a balancing act. Balancing money, job, school, family, friends, hopes, desires, work and play, whew... it's exhausting. And I'm not sure it can ever all be balanced exactly right. and maybe spending your life trying to balance everything is pointless anyway, because, no matter how hard you try, it cannot ever totally be done.
Part of me says, "striving for perfection is good!" and another part says, "why bother?! it's hopeless!" I think the answer is... strive for it, but don't be disappointed when you can't achieve it all. You have to be okay with having a stain on your couch or a person you maybe aren't perfectly top notch with....
The point is, if you're not okay with those things, then you'll never be happy. There you have it.
I think I'm done. Thanks for reading!
